Well it has been a while since the last post... We had another loss not long after Maggie passed on, the feral cat who was living at the smallest boys place since the big move was run over and made his way to kitty heaven.  He has been missed and his replacement is just as feral most of the time. We called him Smokie and he has been living with us for nearly 2 weeks now.

We also have 2 new additions to the family 2 white rabbits called Cuddles and Skittles.  They are just adorable and almost half the size of the dog already.  

The house renovations have been going slowly. In fact I haven't done much at all yet other then getting rid of the tree in the front yard.  That was an interesting adventure.  I decided to do it one weekend and had half of the neighbors taking a look at me, one actually got a large park bench type seat and dragged it into his driveway and watched me digging out the roots for quite some time.  I have been moving the furniture around quite a bit and I am finally happy with the lounge room most of the time and will be even more happier once the heater isnt needed.  I am hoping to have a revers cycle heater next winter.  Well its bed time now hopefully I can get back into a habit of writing again.

A sad goodbye to an old friend

Before there was the beagle, back in the days when I was freshly out of home and living with my ex husband I had another dog.  Her name was Maggie and she was a smithfield cross blue healer they are basically the same breed but the smithfields have no tan and are usually stumpy tailed dogs.  Maggie was the only pup in the litter born with a full tail. The pet shop up the road from our house at the time got her litter in and when I spotted the pups for sale I just had to have one, so I sat down in the pen and she was the pup that choose me.  She has been a part of my life since that day almost 12 years ago.  She sat beside me on the nights I lost my first two babies and watched me cry.  She was there at my feet while I was in labor with mister 6 and she was so protective of him when he finally arrived home from the hospital. She was there when I made the choice to end my marriage and yet again she watched me cry without judging.  She was my dog and even though it killed me I had to leave her when I left my husband and Queensland.  But even though she hasn't been with me for the last 3 years she has still been a part of my life and when ever I got the chance to I would say hi to her and give her lots of pats.  She passed away on wednesday evening and was laid to rest in my ex's back yard.   She was a lovely dog that will be sadly missed by me and mister 6.  I will hunt down a photo of her soon to put up with this post.

I am so glad I dont have to do that for a long time...

Moving sucks.  It rained on the day we moved and we had to move into a house with no power because some wanker didnt finish his job properly which meant I was sold a house with no power supply.. After 4 days and lots of phone calls and quite a bit of jumping up and down I now have power and a new hot water system.  

Everything is moved now I just have to sort things out.  It still hasnt quite sunk in that I own this place tho I did make my mark on it already and painted the numbers bright pink :) I have actually been telling people that I am testing out the colour to see if I want to paint the whole outside of the house that colour.. it gets some interesting reactions.  I still have to clean the other house which I am not looking forward to.

The boys seem to love the place and seem quite at home and the dog thinks its great that she can come inside and enjoys sleeping at my feet while I am on the lounge the cat isnt actually with us at the moment he has gone visiting to the dairy to catch some mice hopefully he stays there for a while as much as I miss him it is a lot quieter without him and there are a lot of other cats in this street so he may not like it here that much I would imagine he might be beaten to a pulp a lot.  

I am loving it here there is so much room in the kitchen and even my room is quite large and has lots of potential.  I would really love to be able to start decorating but I just cant afford to at the moment which is frustrating.  But damn I actually own this place... Its all mine..

Well I am now a home owner but as usual it doesn't quite go to plan...

I got the keys to my new home at 12.30 today.  I was so excited to go around there with mum my step dad and little bubba and I get around there only to discover that  there is no power on.  After 3 calls to the power company I was informed that the reason there is no power on is because there is so sort of lock on the power to stop squatters so off I trundle to the housing trust because they were who I purchased the property off.  A few conversations later someone lets me know I will be called shortly.    1 hour later a guy shows up at the house to tell me the reason there is no power is because they didn't connect the house up to the main power supply..  Long story short I have no power until at least Monday and I will be pushing to get it by then as well..  I really hope they get it sorted asap on Monday because I will be in a house with 2 young children and no bloody power which will not be fun at all we have no choice but to move this weekend... So stay tuned for some grumpy posts from me if they don't get it sorted soon

Never let fear hold you back from experiencing life

Because you never know what amazing things you might miss out on...

In November 2009 I made the decision to move over 2000km away from everything and everyone I knew. I was scared out of my mind and really had no idea what I was doing or why. I left everyone and everything that was safe and familiar behind on the promise of a job working for my father and a house to live in.  In May 2010 I was worried that I had made the wrong choice because my father ended up having to close the shop and I was left with out a job and place to live (they wanted to move back into their house). 

Now as I sit here I know that the choice I made was the right one. If I hadn't made that decision I would never have met the man who although not perfect is the right man for me, yeah we need some help sorting out where we stand most of the time but what we have works for us.  I also wouldn't have my gorgeous second little boy who along with his big brother makes life worth living every single day.  Since coming here I have made some amazing friends who spoiled me rotten on my birthday with a massage a set of acrylic nails and my best friend from high school who they managed to sneak into town.  They also tied me to a chair and blind folded me before leaving me alone in the lounge room with a man who they had me convinced was some random stripper turns out they had hacked my phone called my boyfriend and convinced him to pretend to be the stripper.  Without the support of these friends I wouldn't have found the courage to follow my dreams to become a teacher.  Nor would I have found the courage to try and buy my own home which I move into in 3 days time.  

My life isn't perfect but at the moment it is looking pretty darn good even with all of the problems that I still have to deal with daily.   If I had of left the fear of the unknown prevent me from experiencing some of the most amazing life changing events that I have experienced over the last 2.4 years.. I am really excited to see what happens next. 

Who is she?

She is the one who loves you...

She is the one who cries for you.....

She is the one that will always be there...

She is the one that pretends everything is ok....  

She is the one that will let you walk all over her...

She is the one that you will always regret letting go of....

She is the one that would have made your life perfect if you had of given her the chance..

Sunday afternoon boredom

Its Sunday afternoon and I am sitting here bored out of my brain.  So what do I do when bored on a sunday afternoon to avoid packing?  Watch Twilight of course.  Don't worry this isn't going to be a post about the awesomeness of Twilight...
I really should be packing.  I got what I thought was a lot done yesterday but looking at it again it doesn't really seem like all that much.  Its a very long slow process this packing stuff.  It probably doesn't help that I am sort through a lot of stuff and throwing out giving away the things we no longer want or need... Already I have given away about 4 bags of clothes that no longer fit the boys.  I gave away a few of my own too there is one box with  a dress in it that I am trying to decide on a future for.  Its my wedding dress.  Because I am in the process of getting divorced I really don't think I should be hanging onto it anymore.  It wouldnt matter if I was planning on wearing it again because its like 2 sizes too big for me now anyway.  So the question remains what does one do with a wedding dress they no longer want?? I could sell it but I am not too sure I would be comfortable with that so I am thinking I might end up giving it away.  The dress really is quite beautiful and deserves to be worn again and I kind of hope by giving it away who knows it might bring some positive energy my way and I might actually be able to have the kind of relationship I want with the guy I love....wishful thinking at its best.  Anyway I think that maybe it might be time for me to go and do some more packing..